I apologize in advance for the title. I just heard Green Day sing that line. Anywho....hmm....what's new in the life of Katie? It's Saturday. My last day of tutoring freshman at the Saturday Learning Academy was today. I wasn't too keen on devoting my Saturday mornings to it, but now that it's over I'm a little sad. I always feel all sentimental about shit. Like even though I'm ecstatic that school's almost done, I'm sad because the me/Jason/Paul triangle will be no more. We're all moving on and going our separate ways. I just get attached to the routine monotony that my life becomes and it's difficult to say goodbye to people and things.
Jon is still in the hospital in intensive care. The time has come for me to realize that he's not coming out of there, unless God were to perform some sort of miracle. He's just too far gone. He doesn't know where he is, what year it is, what's going on... nothing. This sucks. There's nothing I can do now except pray. It's really hard for me to deal with. All I can do is try and go about my daily life as usual. I feel bad, but I think it's the only way for me to deal with it. Otherwise I'd probably be too depressed to even get out of bed. It sounds horrible, but the only thing I can think to do is try not to think about how dire the situation really is. I really don't know what to do. And I especially don't know how to be there for my mom as she goes through this. She lost her dad in June, and pretty soon, her husband. What could I possibly do or say?!?! I'm clueless as to what to say, do, think, or feel.
Again, I have to try and keep my mind focused on other bullshit so that I don't lose it. I watched "Clerks" last night. Definitely one of the greatest movies ever!
I'm doing a project in my Teaching Reading in Secondary School class. Me and this guy Dominic who's going to teach Social Studies and Jane who's going to teach Foreign Language have to team up and teach three different lessons based on a single piece of literature. I recommended using the poem "Dulce et Decorum Est" by Wilfred Owen because it's literature (for me, the English teacher), the title's in French (for Jane, the FL teacher), and it's about war (for Dominic, the SS teacher). It's one of my favorite poems ever. The last line: Dulce et decorum est pro patria mori means "How sweet and fitting it is to die for one's country". I better get to work on that.
I can't believe this semester's almost over! It seems like it just started!
Man! I cut onions three days ago for a salad and my fingers still smell like them. I've washed my hands at least 30 times since then. What the fuck?!
James Taylor kicks ass. He's so soothing to the soul, kinda like chicken soup.
Ahh...time to get off my ass and get some shit done. Homework, laundry, and all my other motherly duties await.
I need a beer.
1 comment:
I know how you feel. I spend most of my time bitching about things (jobs, school, etc.) but when it's time to say goodbye, I realize how much I actually like it! I complain about UMSL, and God knows I won't miss paying for it (or the homework) but I will miss seeing you and Paul every other day. But there is no reason why we can't still see each other. Leah and I had a good time at your party.
CLERKS is a great movie. Not sure if you're into Podcasts, but Kevin Smith has an awesome (and free) podcast that comes out every Monday. They're hilarious (just him and a few of his friends talking about nothing). You can download them on iTUNES. You should check it out.
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